One man’s trajectory through the shimmering

I’m surprised that this man, JC Collins, is so young! An old soul, then. 

I discovered his blog a few months ago, and though I don’t always comprehend where he’s going and did not, until this post, get even a glimmer of where he’s coming from, I always come away stimulated, even provoked. Interesting that he gifted his public writing to himself for his 40th birthday. Most likely his coming out party, and a very Uranian event! (The planet Uranus makes its half-cycle between 38 and 42: in other words, it takes that long for Uranus to move from the zodiacal degree it occupied at birth to oppose that original position, 180° away. The opposition invites illumination, the possibility of objectivity. We see ourselves from the opposite side of the circle, as if for the first time.) 

Reflections of Perceptions

September 23, 2014

by JC Collins


In the year 1981 at the age of seven I sat next to the record player listening to Angel of the Morning by Juice Newton while reading Three Billy Goats Gruff. It was my favorite story as a child and in later years I would come to recognize the attempts of the three goats to cross the bridge in order to reach the greener and richer hills on the other side as a symbolic tale of masonic initiation.

The lush fields on the other side of the bridge of course represent man’s attempts at completing a journey to obtain everlasting life inside the physical immortal body. The troll represents man’s carnal and beastly nature which must be overcome in order for the journey to be completed.

Little did I know then that the story had planted a seed in my mind in reference to three’s which would later blossom into wonderful stems of esoteric knowledge woven into perennial patterns.
The pattern of three’s, as in three goats, are manifest in the first 3 degrees of the masonic rites. But back in those early days I saw patterns as something wholly different and confusing than what I would perceive in my later years.

In my youth I saw the material world not as physical objects but as fluid geometric shapes which would come in and out of focus. These shapes shifted and shimmered in patterns of profound complexity.

Later in the year 1996 and 1997 I would spend hours on the internet reading endless conspiracy sites and listening to the Art Bell radio show which was called Coast to Coast. Art Bell had a unique and sublime tone to his voice that kept me listening. Not to mention the random and intriguing guests he had on the nightly program.

During the commercial breaks they would play the song If You Could Read My Mind by Canadian folk singer Gordon Lightfoot. The whole experience was rewarding and pulled me deeper into the world of conspiracy theories and conspiracy facts.

The information presented was mind blowing and sometimes too fantastical to even believe, but I kept listening and learning and piecing together the random bits of knowledge. Eventually a pattern began to form in my mind and what at first appeared random morphed into something with an intangible structure but not yet clearly defined.

As the years went on and the world continued to change I filtered all events through the screen of conspiracy and the internet voices and writings which I had become familiar with. Many predictions came and went with little fanfare after the fact. It began to dawn on me that many of the once trusted sites could very well be a form of social counter espionage meant to funnel and create the opinions of the masses that didn’t succumb to the propaganda of the mainstream sources.

It was difficult to separate my thoughts from the conspiracy theories as they filled a much needed information gap in my knowledge and understanding of the world. Like an addiction I consumed my daily dose and went in search of more.

The overt conflict within the conspiracy world was obvious and at times escalated into blogging wars of online epic proportions. It was as if the inner conflict within man was being externalized across the web based world.

Conflict always finds a way to materialize.

The ranting and raving broke the illusion for me and I began to consciously recognize the pattern of the intangible structure which was simmering just beneath the surface of my everyday thoughts.

This structure told of a repeating process in man where truths are both regarded and disregarded at manifested intervals. The mind finds familiarity in the things in its environment and creates a subconscious construct. Events and knowledge are then filtered through this construct and what matches this subconscious reality is retained and what doesn’t is aggressively disregarded.

At some point in this process I realized that conspiracy theories were creating more confusion and chaos than helping. It became very clear that like all things in life, conspiracy was only about 30% true. The rest of the information was corrupted by the internal deficiencies within each one of us. Like a lie which is passed around the room, the story begins to change and morph into fantastical tales which are supported by little outside of the storyline itself.

It took massive lost and destruction in my personal life before I was able to begin reconciling the geometric patterns of my youth with the esoteric patterns of my later years. Slowly an abstract philosophy began to develop in my mind and the world began to shift into recognizable fragments of comprehension.

These fragments merged with the knowledge obtained from over a thousand books and endless hours streaming live radio from the internet.

It was only on my 40th birthday last New Years Eve that I decided to step away from my own shadow and begin to write down ideas and concepts which I felt would release the pressure inside my mind.

At first I had no idea of what exactly I was going to write about and nor did I have any expectations of what this site would become to not just myself, but so many others.

There are so many amazing human beings which have been with me from the start here and it is I who is blessed with their companionship.

From the consistent Dane and Dripfood, to the contemplating Dee, and with the now quiet Hugh and the persistent Matt, I continue these writings in the additional presence of the Janus AxxFann and Irrelevant111, not to fail to mention Spanish Daniel and and disagreeable Tyberious.

And all the others who have since joined us here, whether silent readers or part time commenters, all are welcome and have enriched my life and this blog.

There are times when my writing style has likely challenged many, and for that I apologize. I attempt to use emotionless wording and expressions to facilitate the inner process of self-initiation and awareness to the outward expression of our deepest conflicts.

Some of the more esoteric and creative works are written differently and for different purposes. The method by which I balance both the economic and geopolitical writings and the creative style are still somewhat of a mystery to me.

The saying “we see what we want to see” is always present in our interpretations as we build our own constructs. Each post I write and publish is well thought out and its effects considered beforehand.

But at the same time I am still finding my voice and writing style. In some sense, this blog is my initiation into the mysteries of myself. Like the first goat crossing the bridge, I started writing and found myself unprepared for the appearance of the troll.

Now I am again approaching the esoteric bridge, this time manifested as the second goat and though I know I am still not prepared for the troll, I continue regardless.

Perhaps this post on reflections and perceptions is my attempt to connect with an audience which I may be disconnected from. Not by socioeconomic or geopolitical status, but by the self-imposed isolation and fragmentation of my intangible construct.

Reaching out to the worlds of others is why I write.

I’d like to thank all my readers and those sites which republish my writings. Thanks for joining me on this journey and thank you for your patience with my abstract and at times challenging style. It is all of you who are bringing clarity to my life. It is you who offer me a connection to the tangible. – JC

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Chakras, Take Two: “Is it time to let them go?”

Chakra-Image-300x220My recent post on Chakras rang a few internal bells, apparently. See the comment section to that piece.

WOW! Are chakras the original mind-control implants?

To that collection of “pros” and “cons” I’ll add another “con” from someone whom I asked to read the article referenced in my original post, an energy worker who prefers to remain anonymous:

Reading through the article I see that my information is completely coming from a different perspective. If you want my honest answer, that group of beings taking a look at this are being diddled by the nonclarity that is in their energy fields when they are attempting to read through that lens. their info neither resonated with me nor did it feel accurate. iIf they got their energy fields more clear and took more responsibility for their lives there would be a different perceptions. The chakras themselves are not cones. They are the spinning globe that sits inside the body. the cones are the energetic swirls that resonate off them. we have different info.

Them pulling out the cones is probalby the closest they’ve come to actually removing cords and other foreign programs that they may have inherited through enculturation and other programming. Giving themselves a healing is great, but saying by removing these things they are closing down the chakras? Well, they can think that, but they wouldn’t be functional bodies if they didn’t have them…

A.K. (me) in response:

I don’t know how I feel about this. I do think that it’s a very interesting concept, though muddied, as you say, that I also agree with . . . If you see on my blog, there’s one woman commentator who says she’s always known that she has no chakras!


I’d rather not be quoted . . .


Okay, I’ll just call you “an energy worker”. Would still like to use what you say, if that’s all right with you.


For what purpose? To start a conversation? to show contrast? You are such a little shit stirrer!

Later, Anon:

What i’m wondering is who is the being that is planting this seed of remove your chakras? That is a more interesting question to me. not the silly people who try it out.

Well, well! Since I always gravitate to “stirring up trouble,” meaning “calling into question whatever I take for granted,” I dug further. And discovered that Lance White (aka Zany Mystic) who reposted that post of mine, interviewed Anelia Benz on the topic. You can hear what she says from about minute 6 to minute 12 here.

Anelia’s point seems to be that chakras are “structures” like any other, and can be created and dissolved at will, once one becomes conscious and clear. That they are tools, and can be used for (programmed for?) good or ill. By the way, she says they are “very beautiful” (I presume she means visually) and has no opinion on when the chakra system was “inserted,” if it was originally used to program people in a certain way, and so on.

He also pointed me to another source, Carla Fox —

Chakra Removal

and to her source, George Kavassilas.

Which happened to zoom me full circle back to, yep, Zany Mystic, who wrote a post on this subject back in February of this year:

The Chakra System: Is It Time to Let It Go?

So geez, who’s the “little shit-stirrer,” eh?

It’s fun — and verrry instructive to call into question things that we are so attached to that we feel defensive at the idea of even looking at them as either temporary or unnecessary. This happened to me when a friend of mine started to use the “sidereal” zodiac rather than the one I used, the “tropical” zodiac. Way back in the early ’90s I think it was. I was incensed! “That can’t possibly be true!” Meaning: How dare she!

I had to look at my own reactiveness there, and it wasn’t pretty!










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Denver: “Game Changer for Homelessness in the U.S.”?

Via Ryan.
The Colorado Coalition for the Homeless will celebrate the grand opening of their Stout Street Health Center and Renaissance Stout Street Lofts on Tuesday, Sept. 9, 2014.

‘Only Development Of Its Kind’ Gets It Right Offering Housing, Medical, Mental Care To Homeless

and/or, is this the kind of thing that a centralized state would love to offer those its policies have made homeless: open-air prisons for the mind and body. Once again, I don’t know what to think. While I’m glad for the individuals who are now safely “off the streets,” I do wonder about their internal freedom to think their own thoughts, especially when so-called “mental health” is offered to make and keep them “normal,” i.e., compliant. See the many posts on this subject by Jon Rappoport. It’s something I recognized way back in the ’60s, when I was studying bodiless academic philosophy and discovered that my mind and body were starting to connect and interpenetrate. Oops! Can’t have that! Department Chairman:  “What’s wrong with you? You used to be such a good uptight graduate student!”

Above all, it’s crucial to wake up and stay awake during these fraught times when centralized solutions offered to problems may bring us not only more of the same, but infinitely worse. Note the American military, which keeps creating new and real terrorists with its brutality against people it calls terrorists, including, my friends, us, when and if we get out of line. 

So while this solution in Denver to homelessness has much to praise, it also raises red flags.

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Sunday’s People’s Climate March: assessment and aftermath

By this time most people are aware of the 400,000 strong Climate Change March in NYC, that even exceeded the high expectations set for it. Not because network news covered it.

CLIMATE WHAT? TV networks drop the ball on Climate March

Of course not. Luckily, we no longer depend on telievision. Just check your own sources: alternet, commondreams, truthout, truthdig, etc.

Here’s two pics of the parade which, apparently stretched 25 NYC blocks.



Here in Bloomington, as I approached the courthouse, where all our protests are held — underneath the proverbial statue to honor all the war dead; tell me, please, why are there so many monuments to war in every town I’ve ever lived in or visited? —

IMG_1149— this one was bigger than usual. Besides quite a number of young people, the usual serious, dedicated silver and white-haired suspects were present, of course, including the intrepid Lucille Bertuccio, grandmother of the Center for Sustainable Living, which she started back in 1992.


Despite the drastic situation that we’re all facing if climate change doesn’t let up, we still managed to find our sense of humor, as in this homage to the “kraken” (a mythical sea monster):


Meanwhile, not everyone was excited about the marches. For example:

How the People’s Climate March became a Corporate PR Campaign

And I find it interesting that the Rockefeller heirs decided, on the very same day as the March, to announce that their foundation was going to join the divestiture movement.  

Rockefellers, Heirs to an Oil Fortune, Will Divest Charity of Fossil Fuels

Huh? Talk about a rollout! I mean, yes, I’m glad, and I’m also mad. It’s either a p.r. crock, or it doesn’t matter, given the urgency of our planetary situation. Or maybe it does matter. Maybe everything matters, especially, to me, it matters that all solutions be both drastic and local, everywhere, local. Decentralize. If something calls for centralized solutions, it’s part of the problem. Steer clear. 

In any case, here are two very different but, I’d say, complementary assessments of the larger picture:

People’s Climate March: How We’re Sharpening the Environmental Justice Movement

It will take a mass ‘movement of movements’ to counter the power of money and corruption that prevents the change we need in regard to climate.


Chris Hedges: The Coming Climate Revolt


When acts of mass civil disobedience begin on Monday morning [that's today, September 22] with Flood Wall Street and later with Occupy the U.N., the face of the corporate state will, as it did during the Occupy movement, reveal itself.

If the response of the corporate state is repression rather than reform then our strategy and our tactics must be different. We will have to cease our appealing to the system. We will have to view the state, including the Democratic Party, as antagonistic to genuine reform. We will have to speak in the language of … revolution. We will have to carry out acts of civil disobedience that seek to cripple the mechanisms of corporate power. The corporate elites, blinded by their lust for profit and foolish enough to believe they can protect themselves from climate change, will not veer from our path towards ecocide unless they are forced from power. And this means the beginning of a titanic clash between our corporate masters and ourselves.





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Concerning Ukraine: “Vladimir Putin just does not make mistakes.” True?

I’ve been following, at a distance, the Ukraine situation, noting Putin’s masterful moves all along, as I remember his birth chart.



Over the weekend, I posted an Eric Zeusse piece, that I retitled

Are Obama and Putin talking privately?

— which seemed to indicate as much.

Jean Haines has posted all along on what’s going on there, and here’s a post that both references an Eric Zeusse follow-up on the above post, and gives commentary by two people, including “Lady Rada,” who seems to be well worth paying attention to!

It does seem as if Putin has engineered another masterful move, illustrating the power of activated natal Pluto at the Midheaven of his chart. And, with that loaded 12th house — diplomatic Libra Sun, joined with Saturn/Neptune/Mercury in penetrating Scorpio — working out of the limelight and behind the scenes would be second nature to him. And of course that inscrutable Scorpio Ascendant encourages whoever wants to vilify him to project whatever hidden agenda they prefer into their perception and assessment of him.

Actions, in this case, do speak louder than all the words that swirl around Putin’s alleged motives and behavior. I continue to watch what one “most elite of martial artists” demonstrates in this ultra-pugilistic, devious and complicated geopolitical morass that envelops the globe.

Lada Ray: My Latest Intel: Did US Lose in Ukraine? Is Putin the Best Russian Leader? Do People Prefer Conspiracies to Real Truth?, September 21, 2014

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Today’s Climate Change March Makes Top Left NYT Headline

Glad to see that the March made the top left headline of today’s New York Times. On the other hand, that may just mean it’s compromised, a part of the controlled opposition . . .

The Hidden Hand of Controlled Opposition

Who knows? If “they” (the .0001%) can hijack our good intentions, we (the 99.9999%) can turn the tables and hijack their selfish intentions. I mean, DUH! Are we victims or creators? CHOOSE.

Me: As I prepare to ride my bike down to today’s local Climate Change Vigil at the courthouse, I’m directing my cantankerous monkey mind to generate a lazer-beam focus to ensure a regenerative future for the whole of life.

New York City Prepares to Host Climate change March

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Upcoming Global Middle East Meditations from “Children of the Sun”

I’m not sure what to make of this non-profit foundation and its upcoming “Middle East Transmissions,” starting September 23, Fall Equinox.

Children of the Sun

In theory, it sounds wonderful, but who knows? Another mind-control program in action? Am I paranoid? Just concerned that our good intentions can be, and sometimes are, hijacked.

On the other hand, synchronized meditations do work.

The Effects of Meditation upon Groups in the World



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